That headline is really drawing you in isn't it?
It's ok, I wouldn't blame you if you clicked over to a different blog now. Really, I'd be sad and I would stare after you with my lower lip trembling, but could I blame you? Me, of the posts few and far between?
Right now I am attempting to define what I want this space to be. As an aspiring journalist (I probably shouldn't have said that lol) there are many things I must be weary of when creating a personal space online in regards to conflicts of interest. That being said there is also the issue of anonymity, as well as the issue of what type of writing I'd like to do here. Personal information and stories, commentary on social events? What am I wanting to say? Do I use this blog as a means to further my career, as a way of showcasing my writing? Do I list it in my resume?
My journalism ethics class is really sending me for a loop with this blogging issue as well. Last week I learned that the Internet will ruin my life, but that is a post for another day. (Seriously, I'm writing that post up now to publish another day)
Friday, April 24, 2009
Thursday, April 9, 2009
A black cloud
The events of the last week are weighing heavily on me. I see many of the other students in my journalism classes who are bursting at the seams with talent and I feel despair creep over me. I follow the photojournalism blogs of fellow classmates and salvate with envy over the quality of their photography. I let it convince me that they will oust me in the shrinking world of journalism.
I don't even want to be a photojournalist.
Yet when I see their photos all glossy and sharp it makes me feel that my writing is dim in comparison. I feel as if I am watching the 1 dream of my life unravel before me.
But I wonder if I am pulling the threads myself?
I lost a notebook this week which held all of my notes for multiple classes this semester. I feel completly lost without it. I worry how I will study for upcoming quizzes and exams, how I will write essays. It was one of the many happenings this week that have sent me into a spiral of self doubt and depression.
Like many people, I am wishing a door would open somewhere and allow me to escape. I am ashamed to admit that I have also been silently spitting envy and poision at those around me blessed with great opportunities, wishing they were mine.
I don't even want to be a photojournalist.
Yet when I see their photos all glossy and sharp it makes me feel that my writing is dim in comparison. I feel as if I am watching the 1 dream of my life unravel before me.
But I wonder if I am pulling the threads myself?
I lost a notebook this week which held all of my notes for multiple classes this semester. I feel completly lost without it. I worry how I will study for upcoming quizzes and exams, how I will write essays. It was one of the many happenings this week that have sent me into a spiral of self doubt and depression.
Like many people, I am wishing a door would open somewhere and allow me to escape. I am ashamed to admit that I have also been silently spitting envy and poision at those around me blessed with great opportunities, wishing they were mine.
Friday, March 27, 2009
My mass of shoes will surely clobber me to death in my sleep one day
I think it should be noted that sometime last week I went through my shoe collection and pulled out 8 pairs to be donated to charity, leaving me with .... 57 pairs of shoes.
Holy cow!
This number doesn't even include the container of boots that I have under my bed, which would add I think four or five more pairs to the number... That's over 60 pairs of shoes! Is that too many?
I also found that I have 31 sweaters (cardigans and zip up hoodies). I could wear a different one every day of the month! Yet instead I alternate regularly between the same 10 cardigans and the same 2 zip ups. I do of course wear the others, but they are colors and styles that don't pop up often when I'm getting dressed. Brown, or grey, or more formal for example.
I always ask myself a few key questions to help decide whether an item stays or goes.
1) Do I like this/ Is this item my style?
2) Have I worn this in the last week?
3) Have I worn this in the last month?
4) Can I think of at least 4 times I have worn this item?
5) Does this fit?
6) Is this item in good condition?
BUT I'm horrible at sticking to "the rules." Especially when it means I'd have to give away the black motorcycle style zip up sweater from Urban Outfitters that I had forgotten I owned!
Questions 2, 3, and 4 don't apply to items you "re-discover" right?
Apparently I need to shop my closet more often because there is some great stuff in there!
Holy cow!
This number doesn't even include the container of boots that I have under my bed, which would add I think four or five more pairs to the number... That's over 60 pairs of shoes! Is that too many?
I also found that I have 31 sweaters (cardigans and zip up hoodies). I could wear a different one every day of the month! Yet instead I alternate regularly between the same 10 cardigans and the same 2 zip ups. I do of course wear the others, but they are colors and styles that don't pop up often when I'm getting dressed. Brown, or grey, or more formal for example.
I always ask myself a few key questions to help decide whether an item stays or goes.
1) Do I like this/ Is this item my style?
2) Have I worn this in the last week?
3) Have I worn this in the last month?
4) Can I think of at least 4 times I have worn this item?
5) Does this fit?
6) Is this item in good condition?
BUT I'm horrible at sticking to "the rules." Especially when it means I'd have to give away the black motorcycle style zip up sweater from Urban Outfitters that I had forgotten I owned!
Questions 2, 3, and 4 don't apply to items you "re-discover" right?
Apparently I need to shop my closet more often because there is some great stuff in there!
Sunday, March 22, 2009
How many shoes is too many?
Ok, so that was a longer hiatus than I intended but I'm here again! My blogging philosophy is definitely shaping up to be "less is more." Maybe this is something only I have experienced, but a lot of the time when I have the desire to write here(maybe even something to say) I get to the empty box on the post page and I lose everything!
Baby steps I guess.
I have a short break from classes which will hopefully allow me to tackle some projects at home such as organizing my closet.
It has gotten to the point where I am stacking pairs of shoes on top of each other. Shoes are everywhere in my room. In a behind the door hanger, a hanging shoe shelf in the closet, a two level shoe rack, the floor, under the bed, on the upper closet shelves, everywhere! When I moved in my two roommates (both males at the time) were flabbergasted at the fact that I had about 40 pairs of shoes. I think I have probably hit the 50 mark...
Am I the only one who really struggles to get rid of shoes? I don't mind having to sort out things in my wardrobe. It's certainly a process and some pieces of clothing are agonized over for a bit, but really I can let (certain) clothes go, but shoes? I believe that since your feet don't change size once you reach a certain age there really is no need to let them go unless they become damaged from excessive wear.
Those gold sequin flats I bought my freshman year in high school: (6 years ago!) I might need them again sometime, plus they are the only shoe that really matches that nude/gold sequin Bebe dress I got on sale 2 years ago!
Those brown suede cowboy boots with the fringe and metal thing on the side that my mom used to wear when she was younger, the ones that are cracking from age in one spot: those are sentimental pieces of art!
That pair of Oh Deer! peep toe black stilettos that pinch my toes and are uncomfortable to even stand in because of how high the stiletto is: they're the shoes I found at a thrift store for 10$ to satisfy my desire to own a pair of heels with a red sole. I WILL get rid of them when I buy some real Christian Luboutains (but that won't be soon!)
Just writing this is really driving home the point that I need to let some shoes go! Oh man, how will I be able to justify my next shoe purchase if I don't? And more importantly where will I put it?
Baby steps I guess.
I have a short break from classes which will hopefully allow me to tackle some projects at home such as organizing my closet.
It has gotten to the point where I am stacking pairs of shoes on top of each other. Shoes are everywhere in my room. In a behind the door hanger, a hanging shoe shelf in the closet, a two level shoe rack, the floor, under the bed, on the upper closet shelves, everywhere! When I moved in my two roommates (both males at the time) were flabbergasted at the fact that I had about 40 pairs of shoes. I think I have probably hit the 50 mark...
Am I the only one who really struggles to get rid of shoes? I don't mind having to sort out things in my wardrobe. It's certainly a process and some pieces of clothing are agonized over for a bit, but really I can let (certain) clothes go, but shoes? I believe that since your feet don't change size once you reach a certain age there really is no need to let them go unless they become damaged from excessive wear.
Those gold sequin flats I bought my freshman year in high school: (6 years ago!) I might need them again sometime, plus they are the only shoe that really matches that nude/gold sequin Bebe dress I got on sale 2 years ago!
Those brown suede cowboy boots with the fringe and metal thing on the side that my mom used to wear when she was younger, the ones that are cracking from age in one spot: those are sentimental pieces of art!
That pair of Oh Deer! peep toe black stilettos that pinch my toes and are uncomfortable to even stand in because of how high the stiletto is: they're the shoes I found at a thrift store for 10$ to satisfy my desire to own a pair of heels with a red sole. I WILL get rid of them when I buy some real Christian Luboutains (but that won't be soon!)
Just writing this is really driving home the point that I need to let some shoes go! Oh man, how will I be able to justify my next shoe purchase if I don't? And more importantly where will I put it?
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